I've sat down here in front of the computer on many
occasions and considered returning to Blogging, in fact I’ve actually wrote a
similar post to this and published it before quickly taking it down again. I
wasn’t ready to put myself out there again. After starting back in 2011 when I
was still an undergraduate, life quickly took over and I quickly lost what I
had started. I remember how exciting it was to get comments and see your page
views and followers rise and wonder what my Blog could become if I nurtured it
enough and if I believed in myself – that is the hardest thing. That confidence
that comes so easily to some people.
Today, I’ve logged back in to Blogger and I have reviewed
all the content that I uploaded in 2011 and early 2012 and it is crazy to think
of how different my life is to then – it’s almost like my life at 21 and my
life now (at almost 25 – eek!) are completely unrelated. It’s strange to feel
so disconnected to yourself reading back over these posts, and seeing mentions
of people that are no longer in your life anymore or things that are completely
different is so unreal. It’s easy to forget what you have been through until
you see if published in front of you.
I feel like my life is lacking something at the minute,
something more personal. I have a wonderful network of friends and family, an incredible
boyfriend and a job that I am looking forward to progressing at, but I miss
having any sort of creative outlet. Somewhere to just fully be myself. I want
that back.
I have decided as I approach my half a century that I need
to do something for me, I want that outlet back. I want to help myself grow and
become a more rounded person. This blog will no longer just be about what is in
my make up bag as I had initially intended. It is going to be more about my mundane,
my experiences, and my interests. It’s going to be real. This is going to be my life, honestly.
You may well notice that there isn’t any content on this
Blog, and right you are. Looking back, I am cringing over the writing styles,
the following of hypes on products that did not completely impress me and just
the general trying to fit in – trying to fit the mould of what I thought I
should be like, what I should blog like. From now, I am being real. My photos
may not always be colour co-ordinated, but that’s fine. That’s life.
So sit back, hopefully you will enjoy my reality.
Wrote by Lauren
